Begin Again // The Getaway

2014. One more big year for me; a big year of change. I will turn 21, begin my education at an actual University and officially start living on my own. I sense that in the coming years I will grow in ways I couldn't have imagined myself. 2013 was precious to me and I will always remember it as a time when I truly let go and took hold of myself. It opened me up to be a person who isn't as afraid, who dares to do things independently, who let's loose of strings that once were tied too tight. I find that I am now a woman of more strength and understanding, yet still am humbled by the immense amount of things that remain a mystery to me. I faced struggles within and outside of myself and fought through them with the Lord's help alone and I remain thankful for each trial, for each storm, for each tear and each lesson learned; I have faith that whenever a part of me is cut away I am formed and chiseled into what the Lord shall make of me. He is always good. So very, very good. No matter what fog clouds my eyes, what pain is in front of or behind me, He is good.

2014 stands before me, glimmering with the unknown. I find that each year, the zone of comfort I have developed for myself dwindles further still and I must learn how to exist more and more on my own. Little by little people drift away that were once so near and the challenges of independence stare me in the face more than ever. Soon enough, I'll have just me and my Jesus as I take myself across the pond again... but I'll worry about that when it is upon me.

Now, I must buckle down because I know I have to. If I want to achieve my dreams I must work at them and finishing a major and minor in just two years is going to take a lot of dedication, not to mention trying to save up for grad school along the way. But I'm ready for it. I notice now looking back that I have been preparing to take on this sort of load for some time now and I didn't even realize it. So, let this year be another year of change, another year of growth and, especially, another year of inexplicable ADVENTURE.

 

Isaiah 40:30-31

"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."